Vacation again :) Because we go so often ya know... :)
We are back in Tennessee. Yeah! We've been looking forward to this for months. The last 4 weeks have been sooooooo long. But we are here and relaxing. We are staying with Daniel and Laura Meadow again. It's so good to see them! We are kind of having a stay-cation only in TN. We are just staying in, eating together and hanging out. Laura just had a baby a month ago so we knew this kind of schedule would be good for them too.
So far it's been really uneventful but today Laura and I are going to attempt to go grocery shopping with the kiddos so it could be interesting... More later.
Monday, July 16, 2012
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Bullies
May I just say, bullying sucks. I was bullied pretty badly as a child and teenager and I still deal with the consequences. I still hear their voices in my head telling me I'm fat, ugly, stupid, or just not worth common courtesy.
One thing that I've been thinking about lately is how much life changes after high school. Whoever said that it's the best years of our lives was delusional. I see pics/status's on FB and some people have dramatically changed. I am definitely one that is changing. One of the main things I was teased about growing up was my weight. Like, because I was heavy, I didn't have feelings or worth.
Sometimes, I feel like I want to go to those bullies after I've lost the weight and shove it in their faces but I know that wouldn't do any good. Most days, I just want an apology. I want them to admit they were wrong and acknowledge that they hurt me incredibly day in and day out for many years. I want them to tell me it was wrong and they don't make people feel like that anymore. Some days I even want to make them feel like I felt but that usually doesn't last long because I know that no one should be made to feel like I did. No One. Not even the relentless, cruel bullies that pick on the vulnerable ones. Those that make others feel absolutely worthless so they can feel a bit better about themselves.
Bullying is ugly. I've got more to say about this but not tonight. We'll see when it comes out again...
One thing that I've been thinking about lately is how much life changes after high school. Whoever said that it's the best years of our lives was delusional. I see pics/status's on FB and some people have dramatically changed. I am definitely one that is changing. One of the main things I was teased about growing up was my weight. Like, because I was heavy, I didn't have feelings or worth.
Sometimes, I feel like I want to go to those bullies after I've lost the weight and shove it in their faces but I know that wouldn't do any good. Most days, I just want an apology. I want them to admit they were wrong and acknowledge that they hurt me incredibly day in and day out for many years. I want them to tell me it was wrong and they don't make people feel like that anymore. Some days I even want to make them feel like I felt but that usually doesn't last long because I know that no one should be made to feel like I did. No One. Not even the relentless, cruel bullies that pick on the vulnerable ones. Those that make others feel absolutely worthless so they can feel a bit better about themselves.
Bullying is ugly. I've got more to say about this but not tonight. We'll see when it comes out again...
running
All my life I've hated running. I dreaded the mile run every year (several times a year) in gym class and always sucked at it. So why am I running now?
That's right. I'm running as part of my exercise. I'm actually training for a 5k in October! Yesterday I ran 2 miles total. One mile was all in a row. The other mile was split into 2- 1/2 mile stretches. I haven't run a mile since my freshman year of high school and this was much faster. MUCH!
I'm going to tell you something kind of embarrassing... I dream of running and I have for years. Weird huh? I dream of running (pretty) fast and seeing the countryside. I thoroughly enjoy it too.
It's hard to believe that I might someday actually enjoy running. I don't mind it now... but I wouldn't say I'm enjoying it. I hope that by the 12:1 Run in October that I'll enjoy it more. But right now I'm proud of myself for running at all! Can't believe it... after all these years.
That's right. I'm running as part of my exercise. I'm actually training for a 5k in October! Yesterday I ran 2 miles total. One mile was all in a row. The other mile was split into 2- 1/2 mile stretches. I haven't run a mile since my freshman year of high school and this was much faster. MUCH!
I'm going to tell you something kind of embarrassing... I dream of running and I have for years. Weird huh? I dream of running (pretty) fast and seeing the countryside. I thoroughly enjoy it too.
It's hard to believe that I might someday actually enjoy running. I don't mind it now... but I wouldn't say I'm enjoying it. I hope that by the 12:1 Run in October that I'll enjoy it more. But right now I'm proud of myself for running at all! Can't believe it... after all these years.
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